But every pregnant lady is allowed to complain at least once, right? This pregnancy has been so different from the last one. I have been so sick and tired and hot. I am blowing up like a hot air balloon, and I look disgusting. I don't get to be the cute, round, preggo-bellied pregnant lady like most people. My mom and sister were the same. We just carry our babies differently than most and I am just getting fat and swollen all over and look really gross. (Hence, no preggo pics.) And I feel really gross. My hair is really dry and ugly, my skin is looking awful, and my hands and feet are constantly going numb. I feel like I can't do anything. When I try to be productive and clean or exercise or something, my belly really hurts. And I just get really lonely staying home by myself all day with no friends around here. I was really hoping our new neighborhood would have a playgroup or something for me to be able to meet other moms around here, but no such luck. I am thinking I may try to start one once people's older kids go back to school.
Anyway, enough complaining. I did want to post some positive stuff....our baby boy's latest pics! I fell off my bike a couple of weeks ago and the doc wanted to do another ultrasound just to make sure everything was ok with the little boy. He is doing just fine, and I made the tech check again to make sure he was still a boy. (He is still definitely a boy.)
Even though this has been a really hard pregnancy for me, I have finally started to get excited about having a boy. I know I have always said that being pregnant is a whole lot easier than having a newborn, but I am getting anxious to just get him here, so we can start adjusting to our new life as a family of 4. I am really just ready to move on...I just feel like I'm in limbo right now and I want to start progressing and healing and finding myself again.
I am extremely nervous about what this addition will bring though. I'm afraid I won't be able to handle 2 kids, and I'm afraid about how Emily will react to her baby brother. And I'm definitely not looking forward to not sleeping and nursing for 10 hours a day. But I am looking forward to meeting this little boy and getting rid of these crazy hormones and hopefully start feeling more normal again. I know it's gonna take awhile to adjust but I am ready to start on that path.
We haven't decided on a name yet, but Matt has insisted his middle name be Charles. (That is Matt's middle name, and his dad's middle name.) I like Brandon, Jackson, and Blake. Matt likes Ethan and Brenner (or Brennan). We both like Zachary, so that just might be it unless something else comes up in the next 8 weeks.
I feel like there's so much to do and that we are running out of time. I have absolutely nothing besides a carseat for a boy, so I pretty much have to start from scratch. I'm finally getting excited about fixing his room up. Right now I am liking either a sailboat/nautical theme or a surfer theme. Something like this...
So we'll have to pick something out soon so we can get it ready. Especially because I'm going to have to make a lot of it since these things are ridiculously expensive. I still don't know what to do about the crib. I'm not ready to move Emily out of hers and I don't want to buy another one. He might just have to sleep in the pack-n-play for awhile until I am ready to move Em into a bed.
Anyway, here's to hoping the next 8 weeks go by fast and that he gets here healthy and I don't go any crazier than I already am.