Confessions of a pregnant lady

So I'm pregnant. Due in October. We're having a boy. This pregnancy is more than halfway over (21 weeks). I have a ton of thoughts running through my head that I'm not quite sure what to say. So here goes the ramble...

This pregnancy has been SO different from the last one. With Emily, I was never sick, I felt pretty normal most of the time. I remember being really tired in the first trimester, but after that I was fine. I was working full time, finishing up my master's degree, and I still woke up early and exercised most days. I was even still running at 7 months, and I swam 3-4 times a week up until the day before she was born! I wanted to eat fruity things, but pretty much consumed a normal diet.

This time I was so sick during the first 16 weeks. I have been really tired even in the second trimester. If I attempt to get up early and exercise, I pretty much crash around 2-3 p.m. (Not good when you have an almost 2-year-old.) I have had major food aversions and it seems like I just want to eat junk. Not good. Last time, I still fit into my pants at 6 months, this time I feel like I'm already as big as I was when Emmy was born and it's only 21 weeks! At this rate, I'm gonna be in major trouble! Especially since I can't exercise as much this time around. With Emily, I constantly thought about the pregnancy and devoured all those emails they send you, took "tummy pictures" every week, spent hours drooling over nurseries, clothes, names, etc. This time, I haven't really thought a ton about it. Probably because most of this pregnancy has been full of house hunting, packing, moving, unpacking, etc.

I was kind of shocked when we found out it was a boy. Even though the pregnancy has been so different, making me wonder if it was a boy, I still had been envisioning 2 little girls running around together, giggling, and being the best of friends. I always felt like my sisters were too young to really be friends with until we were all adults. And so I wanted Emmy to have a sister.

I have NO CLUE what to do with a boy. I have NO boy stuff. His room currently has a pink wall. Matt is ecstatic. He is so excited to have a boy. I'm nervous that I won't be a good "boy mom". I'm nervous that I won't be able to handle 2 kids. We wanted this baby and planned for it, but I'm still nervous.

During the ultrasound, he kept running away. He is a very active little boy already. I started to feel him so much earlier than I did with Emmy. Em is already pretty active and crazy and I'm nervous I won't be able to keep up with 2 very active children. And he already has chubby cheeks apparently, which makes me nervous he will have a big head, making the delivery harder.

Anyway, at least I have 4 more months to prepare and calm down. And paint his room. But I am grateful for modern technology that allows me to know my baby's gender 4 months early so I can have time to prepare. And also to know that he is healthy. Bring on the boy name suggestions!

P.S. I've decided maternity clothes are like mission clothes...once you're done, you want to burn them and never see them again! Only with maternity clothes, you have to endure them for 9 more months if you have more than one kid.Where do people find cute ones...I am trying to figure out what I was thinking when I bought some of these things!